After writing my post last night I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders as I walked upstairs back to bed. As sailor man got up at o'dark thirty to leave for work, he leaned over and kissed me "goodbye my beautiful wife", like he had known all along what I was dealing with. I came to the realization that I don't need to prove myself to anyone. I have the unconditional love of a man. I have a wonderfully amazing daughter who doesn't see the fat rolls or acne scars, she sees me, her mother. I'm not perfect. But I am perfectly me.
When I checked my e-mail I was overwhelmed by the comments people made. I'm so glad I can relate to so many other women! I mean, it sucks that that is how we relate, but it's a strange sense of calm to know that I'm not alone.
I'm going to try not to be a downer in my confessional posts anymore. I feel like that's how they always seem to turn out and I don't like that! I don't want to be a downer, I want to be an uplifter! And my comment about being scared to move to wordpress? Well, I figure those who want to will follow me. I might lose some followers, but I hope to gain new ones. Blogging isn't a competition, and even though I don't have as many followers as some doesn't mean I'm any less of a blogger! The followers just haven't found me yet. So when I make that decision, I will let you know and hopefully you'll choose to join me!