When I started this blog, 3 years ago, I started it as a way for me to cope with our new military life. I have a private blog, specifically for family posts, but because I'm paranoid and adhere to PERSEC I keep my family and this blog separate. This blog was meant just as a personal journey for me, the military life was so new to me, and I was relived to find other women who were navigating the same journey.
About a 15 or so months ago, I started to feel like I was competing with these women. What did their blogs have that mine didn't? Why were they getting 25 comments on a post similar to one I wrote that got 1 comment. They have a link up? I should do one too. (fail). They're advertising? I better step up my game and do it too.
After my post about letting go, this is something I need to let go of. This is not a competition. This is about my life. Period. This isn't about yours, or hers, or even that lady over there. It's about mine. My journey, my navigating, my vents, my happiness, my life.
I have to stop comparing myself to others. I have to stop worrying about the number of comments or page views my posts get. I have to stop trying to beat this blog or that blog. I don't need to be the best, in reality, it's not a competition.
I had no intention of this being a "money maker" blog when I started. And I realized that I still don't have that intention. Yes, I will still offer the sponsor spaces, and I am still going to be working with small business to help promote themselves, but I'm not going to worry about those spots not being filled. If you're interested, let me know, if not, it wont hurt my feelings.
So, I'm letting go and getting back to the basics. This blog is about me and that's what I'll write about. If I get 10 million hits, super, if I get 1 great. I'm writing for me, I need a place to get everything out.I've had a case of writers black for a good while now, and I believe this is why. Putting the pressure on myself of having to write caused me to block.
There are still link ups and things I will participate in. When I get back to San Diego, I plan on doing my "adventures in the city" meme again. I will continue to do my 101 in 1001. I'll still post my recipes and care package idea's. When Sailor Man gets home I'll post about date night. If I ever get to be crafty, I'll post those too. I wont adhere to a schedule, I wont worry about not posting a good enough topic.